Winter Blues

They always hit... but this year it doesn't make sense because it is so beautiful out. I talked to a woman on Saturday who mentioned that she bunkers down for the winter and was so accepting of that... I guess I am hard on myself... but who am I kidding, I do it year round. So, I woke up on this past holiday weekend with a very sore throat and painful cough. I was getting into a Sons of Anarchy binge so it was the perfect recipe for hibernating and trying to get well, but I worry I am more than just a little depressed. It has been building. I have been trying to fight it off. There are so many things I have no control over and life hurts. Having no energy made working out this weekend a big no. But I am not being too hard on myself. I ate a lot of soup and cereal and drank lots of liquids. I hope to go to a yoga class tonight and get some miles in today. I walked around naked and didn't judge myself. :) I will get through this season... this life! Goals this week: Yoga Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Saturday, Sunday I have a wedding I am in on Saturday. It will be an exercise in self love to get ready for this wedding without judgement. I am in the wedding and it is the brides day to shine, I am just there to support her. It is always nice to take pride in appearance and try to look beautiful, but this season is hard... and when I tried on my dresses I was let down about how I looked in them. So I am going to take pictures on Saturday, pale but happy! Goal: No nervous drinking Friday or Saturday :) Goal: Walk five miles daily Goal: Post a photo with no filter :0) I need to embrace the real me