I was doing fantastic

and could feel it.... walking a ton, yoga, eating less processed foods (i don't fast food it, but definitely do too many canned soups, etc) and I was creeping down. The main thing is that I cut out etoh to one day a week. WEll, this last weekend my one day made me gain all the weight I had lost. IN ONE DAY I can't hardly believe it. I got back on track and weighed in a little lighter, but I am definitely not a contender.

Finally bought batteries

But I am in a different place than I was on Friday... when I had been fit and doing well. I kind of took a weird turn this weekend. Eating skittles and chocolate and even cheetos. My brain has been on overdrive the last couple of weeks. There have been parts that have been good, but I can't lie that the lows I have had have been intense. I didn't ask for this rollercoaster, or the rollercoaster of my life, and sometimes I get so tired. I feel like the battle with loving my body has been the only thing in my life that has never left me. That and my 13 year old cat at this point. i know this is TMI, but i just feel pissed. I am so angry that it is a constant struggle in mine and the lives of so many women.... hmmm I feel a love letter to myself needing to be written...

Battery died on my scale

Im not kidding... I have the dead ones in my wallet to replace them, but I have no idea what the numbers say. I have been staying active... immediately after beginning running again my knee started acting up (its not all in my head) but I rested it and have been continuing to walk and yoga it up. I have been continuing to make more fresh dinners and alcohol hasn't been a dominant ingredient of my weekends. My cycle started, so I had a huge dip in my spirits. my walking buddy at work went to Norway, and my other walking buddy has been wanting to go at 7:30 in the morning (right when we get to work) and I can't justify that... I think that type of behavior is frowned upon and work has already been tough enough. I am excited to see what the scale finally says, but it will probably be more even... just got to keep plugging.